Turning 30
If I get it all out now, I may feel better when I turn 30 years old in October. Just writing the words 30. years. old. SCARES me. There are some things I thought would never happen to me. Turning 30 or just getting older for that matter WAS one of them. Getting older is downright frightening.
Starting next month, I can no longer say I'm in my twenties and I can't refer to myself as a "twentysomething". Honestly, I get anxious just thinking about it. I'm trying not to be whiny or be a baby about it but I just don't want to get older. Wouldn't it be nice if we could stay in our twenties forever? I'd be happy at 29 forever. I think. Ask me in a few years.
As I approach 30. I feel like I'm just beginning the soul searching, spirituality questioning, and the finding of who I truly am. When I was in my teens and early 20's, I thought I would be perfectly settled at 30. But my life is anything but settled. I never imagined my life with children. And, now I could not imagine my life without my children. I guess I just thought things would be different than they are now. I see people around us our age and realize that we are so not typical and I'm ok with that. I know some people think our life is one big busy-crazy mess. But to me it's what it should be.
(Me before kids: age 23) I've also realized that I have grown so much as a person in the last few years. I'm such a different person than I was five years ago. My boys are my world and having them has led me to what I am good at. If I hadn't become a mom, I dont think I would have ever pursued my own business. By my standards, my home business is successful. It has taken me time to get there, but I have a better income now than I have ever had before and I'm able to do it while staying at home with my children. I know that sounds like an advertisement from some get rich quick scheme on tv but it's true. I'm not sure if its luck or all the hard work over the past 3 years has finally paid off. Either way, I am content.
Some other things I have realized about myself are that I'm actually comfortable with who I am now. I like being me. I've realized that I have to do what is right for me and my family and not go by everyone else's standards or what is socially acceptable.
On a daily basis, people tell me I look way younger than my age and they jokingly ask what kind of well am I drinking from. I usually just smile and say I'm almost 30. Even though everyone around me says I look young, that still doesn't make me feel any better about turning 30. Because I'm still turning 30 and I'm still getting older no matter what and that makes me realize that life will not go on forever. It makes me realize that I have to cherish all the moments I have with my children, my family, my husband, and friends NOW.
I know turning 30 is not the end of the world but turning 30 is a HUGE turning point and makes you look back on what you have done so far with your life. I'm content with my life thus far and I'm hoping my 30's will be even better.
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If I get it all out now, I may feel better when I turn 30 years old in October. Just writing the words 30. years. old. SCARES me. There are some things I thought would never happen to me. Turning 30 or just getting older for that matter WAS one of them. Getting older is downright frightening.
Starting next month, I can no longer say I'm in my twenties and I can't refer to myself as a "twentysomething". Honestly, I get anxious just thinking about it. I'm trying not to be whiny or be a baby about it but I just don't want to get older. Wouldn't it be nice if we could stay in our twenties forever? I'd be happy at 29 forever. I think. Ask me in a few years.
As I approach 30. I feel like I'm just beginning the soul searching, spirituality questioning, and the finding of who I truly am. When I was in my teens and early 20's, I thought I would be perfectly settled at 30. But my life is anything but settled. I never imagined my life with children. And, now I could not imagine my life without my children. I guess I just thought things would be different than they are now. I see people around us our age and realize that we are so not typical and I'm ok with that. I know some people think our life is one big busy-crazy mess. But to me it's what it should be.
(Me before kids: age 23) I've also realized that I have grown so much as a person in the last few years. I'm such a different person than I was five years ago. My boys are my world and having them has led me to what I am good at. If I hadn't become a mom, I dont think I would have ever pursued my own business. By my standards, my home business is successful. It has taken me time to get there, but I have a better income now than I have ever had before and I'm able to do it while staying at home with my children. I know that sounds like an advertisement from some get rich quick scheme on tv but it's true. I'm not sure if its luck or all the hard work over the past 3 years has finally paid off. Either way, I am content. Some other things I have realized about myself are that I'm actually comfortable with who I am now. I like being me. I've realized that I have to do what is right for me and my family and not go by everyone else's standards or what is socially acceptable.
On a daily basis, people tell me I look way younger than my age and they jokingly ask what kind of well am I drinking from. I usually just smile and say I'm almost 30. Even though everyone around me says I look young, that still doesn't make me feel any better about turning 30. Because I'm still turning 30 and I'm still getting older no matter what and that makes me realize that life will not go on forever. It makes me realize that I have to cherish all the moments I have with my children, my family, my husband, and friends NOW. I know turning 30 is not the end of the world but turning 30 is a HUGE turning point and makes you look back on what you have done so far with your life. I'm content with my life thus far and I'm hoping my 30's will be even better. >Go to the Mom blog Homepage
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The 30's have been the best years of my life, so look forward to it :)
The 30's have been the best years of my life, so look forward to it :)
Wow. That is a really great post. I keep thinking that about 25! On Sept. 1 I was telling people how in a month I might have lived like a third of my life and I was scared. I think sometimes-once you are parents- any age can feel like you are getting old. The years start flying by and you have no clue when your time is up. I feel older than most people I know my own age. I think I am alot more responsible and more grown up soemtimes- it may not be true- but I have alot of responsibility. I here some people in their 30's-not syaing any names- that talke about hanging out all the time and they sleep until noon. Helloooo-you aren't in high school anymore- get some responsibilty.
Anyway, I think you have done a great job. You have a beautiful family and now have a great income. I hope your 30s only bring you more great times and I always heard when you hit that age- you start finding yourself. I am sure whatever you find will be beautiful:)
Oh. SOO well said. :)
Very well said.
I turned 30 this year and I did not like it. Although I am really comfortable with who I am, I thought I would have had more by 30. Now that the birthday has come and gone, I feel a lot better and I am just striving to get where I want to be, for me.
I can relate. I turned 30 in June and it prompted me to take a closer look at my life. When I was 18, I had mapped out a plan that included goals I hoped to reach by the time I was 30. Things turned out differently than I had expected, but I wouldn't change it. I am happy with what I have and who I am. I admit, I thought I'd be a bit wiser and a little more together than I am. I'm really still trying to figure a lot of things out, but who isn't?
Enjoy your 30th birthday!
That was extremely well put.
Turning thirty was a big deal for me too. I wish I were still in my twenties some days but its only in my 30s that I am starting to really figure it all out.
I predict your thirties will be wonderful ...
I think 30's will be great. The self assuredness that comes with it all... You sound ready to live well. Live happy.
I will be turning 30 in December. I'm just now coming to terms with it. I'm upset, scared, depressed and confused. I'm a mother, a wife and a daughter ... I still have no clue who I am or what I stand for. I feel like I'm just floating through life not enjoying anything. My daughter is pretty much the only thing I concentrate on! I live through her smile and will sacrify anything for her well being. She's the best thing that ever came into my life .... but I'm personally lost
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