Being Absent
We got back home from our vacation early this morning and you know what I realized, I realized that I enjoyed being absent from blogging and from my computer immensely. I enjoyed being disconnected so much that I wish I never had to do this again. Well, not really, but sometimes blogging's just not fun when I have to force myself to think of something to write about during the week. I'm sure everyone knows what I'm talking about.
We had a wonderful time at the beach and this was the best early birthday present I could have asked for. We spent alot of time talking about where we wanted to live in the next few years, what we wanted to do and the possibility of adding to our family during our 10 hour trip there and 10 hour trip back.
Yes, you heard that right even though you've heard me say a thousand times that I didn't want to have any more kids BUT I can't get rid of this feeling inside of wanting another child to make our family complete. Maybe that feeling will pass or maybe it wont. All I know is that this time there will be a plan or atleast a plan for a plan... I keep going back and forth with what I want and how I feel and fear is the biggest issue. A part of me just wants this feeling to go away completely and make me feel the way I felt a week ago never wanting anymore kids so that I don't even have to worry about it. You just don't know how much this feeling has consumed me.
Anyway, this is it for now. I'll share some photos of our trip tomorow on flickr.
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We got back home from our vacation early this morning and you know what I realized, I realized that I enjoyed being absent from blogging and from my computer immensely. I enjoyed being disconnected so much that I wish I never had to do this again. Well, not really, but sometimes blogging's just not fun when I have to force myself to think of something to write about during the week. I'm sure everyone knows what I'm talking about.
We had a wonderful time at the beach and this was the best early birthday present I could have asked for. We spent alot of time talking about where we wanted to live in the next few years, what we wanted to do and the possibility of adding to our family during our 10 hour trip there and 10 hour trip back.
Yes, you heard that right even though you've heard me say a thousand times that I didn't want to have any more kids BUT I can't get rid of this feeling inside of wanting another child to make our family complete. Maybe that feeling will pass or maybe it wont. All I know is that this time there will be a plan or atleast a plan for a plan... I keep going back and forth with what I want and how I feel and fear is the biggest issue. A part of me just wants this feeling to go away completely and make me feel the way I felt a week ago never wanting anymore kids so that I don't even have to worry about it. You just don't know how much this feeling has consumed me.
Anyway, this is it for now. I'll share some photos of our trip tomorow on flickr. >Go to the Mom blog Homepage
We had a wonderful time at the beach and this was the best early birthday present I could have asked for. We spent alot of time talking about where we wanted to live in the next few years, what we wanted to do and the possibility of adding to our family during our 10 hour trip there and 10 hour trip back.
Yes, you heard that right even though you've heard me say a thousand times that I didn't want to have any more kids BUT I can't get rid of this feeling inside of wanting another child to make our family complete. Maybe that feeling will pass or maybe it wont. All I know is that this time there will be a plan or atleast a plan for a plan... I keep going back and forth with what I want and how I feel and fear is the biggest issue. A part of me just wants this feeling to go away completely and make me feel the way I felt a week ago never wanting anymore kids so that I don't even have to worry about it. You just don't know how much this feeling has consumed me.
Anyway, this is it for now. I'll share some photos of our trip tomorow on flickr. >Go to the Mom blog Homepage
9 Comments:
Gosh, I know what you mean about having "THAT" feeling. I've officially closed my "factory" but sometimes still have that urge to have another baby to fill the void of my youngest who is already a toddler. But most times, I'll think "You must be kidding me!" Lol. Now, you must excuse me, I need to go chase that feeling away :)
After our 3rd DD was born we were like "that's it" and now that she is 16mths I admit I have moments of am I sure?? I don't know if it is because she is suppose to be the last I can't get past the fact there will be no more 1st this 1st that. Ya know? I think the other thing too is at 32 I feel like I'm too young (crazy I know 32 well isnt really that young but it's not that old either) to be done having kids BUT then I did have my 1st DD at 20. So I can relate to where your at.
My husband I have talked alot about trying to have another child. He wants to, I'm not as sure. Fear is my biggest issue, too.
Anyway, I'm glad you're back!
I say just do it ;). Hugs. Cna you get into my blog???? But don't do it if it's a frustration source LOL
For the longest time, I swore I only wanted one child and then, like you, I started to think maybe one more would make us a complete family. And you know what? It did. Having two kids is definitely more work but it's also immensely satisfying in a way that is different from having only one.
:)
First, I love sexyback even though I didn't want to.
Second, I hope the answer to your question about whether or not to add one more to the family answers itself for you soon.
I know exactly what you mean. My last was an 'oops' but not really. I'm so glad he's here!
you need a girl.
I know exactly how you feel, I want one more to complete my family.
I knew we had to have this baby to make our family complete ... so we shall see once the baby arrives if this is it!
Glad you had a wonderful vacation. I miss those long trips talking over everything!
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