My emotions are all over the place and I know it physically does not have to do with me turning 30 years old in 2 days (Thursday is my birthday! Hint!Hint!) But obviously it has a lot to do with how I feel emotionally because, um, their emotions.

If you were to ask me right now how I am feeling, I would tell you that I am nauseous, nervous, scatterbrained, Wishy-washy not knowing what direction to take, and overall just an oversensitive weird mess. I still have “that” feeling of wanting a baby. I don’t know why because for the past 2 years I have had the opposite feeling.

Do we really want a third child? I’ve even been looking at baby names. Am I going crazy? I’m not even pregnant and I’m looking at baby names and I already have names picked out. Yes, I think I’m going crazy. When and if my family read this very supposed-to-be private matter, they will be going crazy. They will be telling me to wait or they will wonder why I would ever want another child since we already have two boys.

I just really hope that all these crazies that I am feeling inside is NOT an indication of what being 30 will feel like. Tell me you have felt this way too…