Last night the boys and I went to bed early and I fell asleep crying from watching Terms of Endearment. It seems like these days everything I read or watch ends up making me cry. I don’t know if its hormones or the age thing or what. It just seems like so many bad things happen to good people. When you turn on the news you hear about a child being murdered by it’s parents or someone killing innocent school children. Then I read stories of young moms battling cancer and I think what if this happened to me? How would I deal with it? Who would take care of my children if something happened to me or the hubs? What if they didn’t know what my children loved or what their favorite things were? No one knows them like I do and no one else knows their routines as well as I do and I just could not imagine them ever being without me. Seriously, am I being irrational for thinking these thoughts?

Becoming a mother (and getting older) has made me realize more fears than I ever thought I would have but even with these crazy thoughts and feelings, motherhood is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I have a love that I never thought was possible.

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Shameless Promotion: Check out what is posted today from our Halloween Theme Blogging at OurSmartBaby.com especially if your kids like Spongebob.

I also wanted to mention that two of my fellow work at home moms have put together a Halloween Costumes E-book. Check it out. Click here! They are also having a Halloween Costumes Idea contest where you can submit your ideas and win prizes!