You know what’s funny (or not so funny if you think about it) about blogging is that with blogging a person just gets a glimpse of your life with each post. And, you get to choose what they read. You get to choose what part of you they get to know. In real life it’s not really like that. With blogging, it’s kind of like your readers really get to know the person inside your head. They get to read what you are thinking. I’m more outgoing on my blog than in real life but aren’t we all? After all we are not face to face with anyone as we write what we do. But we do have to have the courage to at least publish it and that means something.

Lately I’ve been thinking about what people that don’t blog think about my blog. Did you know that such people really exist? Yep they do and they read our blogs. The non-bloggers probably think the personal bloggers are off their rockers. And, with this blog, I have NEVER been anonymous and you know what, that’s scary. Anyone at anytime can read my thoughts. I also noticed that my name was searched for over 130+ times last month alone and when you type that name in google you find me. You find this blog. WTF? And, I’m kind of hoping they aren’t looking for me. I’m hoping that I’ve just got a common name.

Sometimes I write things and then I’m like well what if I’m having dinner with my family and what if they read my blog before we come over for dinner. And then I’m like Oh God everyone is looking at me because what if they read my blog and they know via the blog that I just had some crazy hot sex last night or they read that I’m currently anti-public school or that I’m really a lesbian (but I’m not folks. Seriously. I’m just sayin’ for the sake of this post) or whatever. That’s where some serious awkwardness comes in. One can only hope that some people stay dumb and never find out what the Internet is. Gosh, blogging brings up some seriously weird issues for those of us that are read not only by others on the Internet but by our friends, families, colleagues, and co-workers (I don’t have any but my hubs does) Can you imagine?

Sometimes I wonder if old friends are reading this or gosh possibly old boyfriends or what if that new couple that we just met googled me and started reading what I wrote. Because, yes, people google each other nowadays. I know I do. If I meet you, I’ll google you because that’s what we crazy people do. And what if when my kids get older their friends google me or google this and use it too tease them? This blogging business is getting to me. I’ve just got to get a handle on it.

Ok and no more talk about blogging for a while because, yes, I’m thinking too much into it.