I attempted to do a post featuring the best of this blog from 2008 but everything I wrote in 2008 sucked. We all know it so there’s no reason to pretend otherwise.

In 2008, I almost gave up on blogging and more than anything I stopped writing how I really felt out of fear more than anything. Fear of rejection, fear of not being “normal”, and fear that those close to me would think different of me with every new post that I wrote. Not to mention it’s also very difficult to write honestly when you live in a very small town where everyone knows what you do. I’m not so vain to think that everyone’s first thought when they wake up is let’s go read Amanda’s blog but it still kind of makes me uneasy. Things get misconstrued in writing. And, well people are crazy.

In real life, I’m not so vocal. I’m a loner. I stay in the background. That’s who I am. Writing is my way of making sense of this world. I may not be the best writer ( heck, I know I’m not by FAR) but it’s what I enjoy doing. And, until I figure out what I am good at I’ll keep doing this. Besides, the Internet is a big place, and there’s room for all of us, right?

Happy 2009.