No, it’s not a nervous breakdown quite yet but close. Oh so close. It seems like I go through this every year…every new year that is. It’s quite worse this year because for me 2008 did not live up to my expectations of what I thought it would be business wise. Or, maybe I realize looking back that I didn’t do all I could have, or maybe because I didn’t realize I was wasting my time on so many wrong things.

Another year means another year older which means less time for my business & personal (both of which are connected) goals to be realized. I don’t know if it’s just me or what but I feel like I need to do something more with my life. I feel like I need to make a difference. I need to make a statement. I need my life to mean something more than it does at this moment.

What is wrong with me? Maybe I have cabin fever? I need fresh air, need to get out, scream, dance, laugh, cry. I don’t know. But, I do know I need to shake this feeling so I can get on with 2009 and make these possibilities I have in my mind a reality.